Tuesday, October 20, 2015

Prayers on a Tuesday

Dear Lord,

I want to give you all the control. I know I have no control, but it's difficult to admit. I like to be in control of my life, but I know I need to recognize that I cannot do this life with the reigns in my hand. Sometimes I get scared to ask for your help with things because I know you will provide me with opportunities to work through those specific things. I once learned when I asked for patience that you gave me opportunities to grow in patience. I fear that as I ask for your help with control that I will feel so out of control. This idea looms over my head because it is scary to think about such loss of control. In my life right now, I'm barely holding on to all the pieces that are making up my puzzle piece of life. I know in my heart that if I let go, you will catch me. I know in my heart that your hands are not far below my dangling feet. I know in my heart that you will not let me fall. But it's my head that says "keep holding on!" My head screams that I am about to lose control and that will make me a wreck. I guess my first prayer is to help my head understand my heart. And my second is to help me lost control so that you can gain control. I know you have in store what's best for me and I trust that you have me in your perfect place here. Thank you for the peace that will come. Thank you for the support that is my family and friends. Thank you for your perfect will.

I pray this in Jesus' name.